what's new?

So, I thought I'd write just to let everyone what's been going on. I'm still enduring the college search. My brother was home over Thanksgiving and edited my second draft of my essay; I've rewritten it and emailed it to him to edit again! I have such an awesome brother!!!! His visit home wasn't nearly long enough, but it never seems to be! I took him and Shereen to Portsmouth on "Black Friday" and we walked around a bit and had lunch at the Friendly Toast. It was a lot of fun to have the family here for Thanksgiving. The only people that were missing were, Sara, Adam, and Scott! Then the house would have been complete!!!!! I'm still looking for a job in the medical field. Who knows what will happen in the future.

I got my first letter from Carrie and was so excited to hear from her! She's doing well at boot-camp and will be glad to receive as many letters from me as I can send! I'm hoping to go down to Pennsylvania in April after she graduates basic training and AIT! I guess that's all for now. Later y'all!!!!

New Happenings!

     Sorry it's been a while since my last post. Life has been a little crazy lately, with a new relationship and trying to get the house ready for Thanksgiving. My relationship is going quite well right now, though I'm still a little worried about the potential heartbreak. Dave and I have talked about this countless times, and I realize it's a risk we take when getting into a relationship, I'm still a bit worried because now there's kids involved. My heart is quite convinced that things will progress as they are meant to and that hearts won't be broken. It's getting my heart to convince my brain. We've been together for just over a month and I couldn't be happier. It's truly amazing how one person can make such a difference. :)
           Well, I have a new serrogate neice. She will be two months old on the nineteenth. Her mom and I grew up together and got to be really good friends starting in high school. This little girl is absolutely adorable and just melts my heart. Sorry, no pictures! I can't believe how many of my friends are parents. Even my boyfriend is a dad! Not all of the people I grew up with are parents, but there's a good chunk of them that are.
     Carrie came home to visit one last time before leaving for bootcamp about two weeks ago. She is officially in bootcamp as of today. I got her address today when she called her mom for a brief conversation. I know that the two of us haven't always been close, but for the last nine months we've become best friends again! Even before her trip home last February, we would meet for a drink when she would visit and needed to get out of her house for a bit. I think the time I spent in Pennsylvania this summer was good for the both of us. I will miss her while she's at bootcamp, but I'm also very happy for her! She is doing what she needs to for her. This step in her life!
     I received a new bottle of wine from my favorite married couple in Pennsylvania!!!!  :)  It's called Chocolate Lab and is a chocolate flavored wine. Thank you Chris and Dave for thinking of me while you were celebrating your anniversary!!! I can't wait to try it. I think I'll wait for a special occassion to open it!
     For now, that's it. I'm still working on college applications. That's an ongoing process :)I'll keep you updated as things progress!

Fate has Finally Stepped In :)

Well, I know I mentioned this before but there's a guy in my life. We are definitely taking it slow because of his kids! We make each other so happy. Never in a million years would I have thought I would end up here at this place, with this person! I smile more than I have before and I feel different than I have in any other relationship. As I said before, we grew up together, went to grade school and when we hit high school he left after freshman year. We lost contact for about ten years and a couple of months before I left for Pennsylvania we got back in contact with each other. Even then I didn't think we would end up where we are now. Hell, three months ago, I would have said you were crazy if you told me that I would be at this place now! I knew I wanted to try and see if things work when Carrie was home in September and we all went out to the bar for some drinks and pool. Since then, I have found out how happy we are when we're together! That one night at the bar was the night that sparked everything. It seems that fate has finally stepped in for the both of us and brought us here, together. The future is still a mystery, but I can at least influence it as much as possible. We want to end up together in the end, it's just a matter of time and patience :)  I'll definitely keep you posted on what happens!!!!!

Life as I Know it!

So, I have officially started the application process for college. Man do I feel like I'm in high school again. Trying to write essays for college applications is not an easy task to take on. I will get through with the help of my family and friends. Speaking of friends; I have been spending time with a friend that I grew up with. We went to school together, we didn't really keep in touch after high school. We got back in touch when I was in Pennsylvania and we started hanging out together since I've been home! It's been really nice to have someone to talk to, and we talk about everything. I was at his place the other night, we watched Avatar and then stayed up talking until 3:30 in the morning. I can't believe how much we talk when we are together. We've gone out with his kids to see the foliage, which wasn't very pretty, but it was still a nice day! We have a good friendship going on right now, and maybe that's what we both need. We're going out tomorrow and Friday, and he said that he would help me with my essays if I wanted him to. I'm going to see if he'll with the personal choice essay. My best friend, Carrie is leaving for basic-training in a few weeks. I'm sad that she's leaving, but very very proud of her. She'll be home for a visit before she leaves and I'm sure we'll hang out. Right now, I guess that's it. I will keep you updated on my college endeavors as the arise.

realization

So, I'm realizing more and more what I truly want out of life. I'm going back to school next fall to get my Bachelor's degree in Nursing and am hoping to find that guy that makes my heart skip a beat. I want, more than anything in the world, to be a mother. I want to have a family and watch little ones running around a house that is as warm and loving as mine was while I was growing up. I want to go through the joys of motherhood along with the joys of being a wife. I know I'm 27 years old, but that doesn't mean I'm not ready for all of this to happen, I'm just waiting for the right guy to come along! I know that all of this will happen as it's meant too, but the waiting for it to happen sucks-ass; so there's no sense in staying home waiting for "Mr. Right" to fall into my lap. I'm going to have to get out there and step outside of the little box I like to be in. I also realize that because I'm getting older, the guys that I date will have as much baggage as myself or more. And I realize that some of them may already have children. That is something that I don't mind, as long as the guy I end up with wants to have more children. So, here's to my plans for the future and finding the one true-love of my life.

Keeping you updated!

So, I've been home for about two weeks. I miss Carrie and all my friends in Pennsylvania. I had such a great summer and was sad to have to depart and leave them all behind, but I know that I will be going back down as soon as I can to visit and have more fun! Scott, Mel, Dave, Chris, and Amy made my visit the best it could have possibly have been. I not only was able to enjoy time with Carrie, I was also able to go out with friends that accepted me into the group within the first couple of weeks without question! I am so thankful for their friendships and the time we spent together. I have now gained friendships that I will cherish forever. We did a lot while I was in the great state of Pennsylvania and since I've been home it hasn't stopped! The Monday of my return I was taken to Boston by Donna to go to the Red Sox game with her cousins. We sat in the Budweiser Roof Deck and had an absolutely awesome time. I started back to work the Thursday and Friday for workshops. And then this past Monday and Wednesday, Donna and I went two minor-league baseball games. One was in Manchester for the FisherCats and the other was in Portland for the SeaDogs! We had a great time at both games, as usual and ran into some friends while we were at the Manchester game. This past week was the first week of school for the kids. I'm working in 7th grade and I do enjoy it. They've changed the way things are going in the 7th and 8th grade and the paraprofessionals. Last weekend I did some dress shopping with Sara and the other girls in her wedding party. We found a couple of dresses, but nothing is set in stone at the moment. I have managed to continue taking pictures and posting some of them on RedBubble. I am still so thankful to Carrie for getting me back into a hobby that I thoroughly enjoy doing! I am looking forward to Carrie coming home for a few days and possibly spending a bit of time with her. I am also hoping to see a friend in a couple of weeks once we have settled into our schedules again! We will see what happens after we have dinner :)

Well, I'll keep you updated with my life as I can.

stirring old interests!!!

So, I should be thankful to Carrie for stirring an old interest that has been dormant for the better part of two years, at least. As you may know, her and a couple of friends chipped in and bought me a digital camera for my birthday. It isn't one of those fancy Cannon or Nikon cameras with a million settings that professionals use, it's simple and perfect for me at the moment. Carrie, Scott and I were out at Penn State College Campus because I wanted to take pictures. I haven't just gone out to take pictures in a very long time, though I did was down in April, but it didn't stir anything then. We were walking around campus and I was finding shots that I wasn't sure would come out well, but regardless I took the shot and hoped for the best. And so we continued to walk around campus and I was taking pictures of the old building I saw through the branches of trees that hung down over them. And I was taking pictures of flowers, the way I used when I would go to Portsmouth when the gardens were in full-bloom! It was when I was taking pictures of some blooms at the O.H. Smith Botanical Gardens at Penn State, that I remembered how much I really did enjoy taking pictures of nature, and some people, especially people I'm with that know I'm taking their picture. Somehow, this part of me was lost and buried since that awful break-up two years ago. And now you may ask what has happened. I am thanking my best friend and favorite roommate in whole world for this new stirring of an old interest that's been waiting, apparently, for the right opportunity to shine again. I never took photography classes, so it is completely a hobby and one that I have realized that I find true solice in. Even though I don't own a fancy digital camera, I have one that is doing a good enough job for me at this present time and if I feel like this interest can go anywhere, I will save the money to purchase a "fancy" digital camera, though sometimes I miss the 35mm with exchangeable lenses that I first started with. Today, Carrie and I returned to the Botanical Gardens so she could get some shots of the water lilies that are bloomed only during the day. I found some shots that I thought were interesting enough for me, and so I joined Carrie in sitting around the little pond and thoroughly enjoying what I was doing for the first time in a long time. I found shots that I was hesitant about, but took them anyway. When the day was over, or Carrie's battery died, we came back to the apartment and I let her look what I had taken over the last few days. And to my surprise she was impressed by some of them. She even gave me a couple of suggestions on post-editing for a couple of the shots I took. Listening to her and hearing what she thought was important to me and I realized then, that I have truly and regrettfully missed just going out and taking pictures of what I see in nature. So, my mission when I return home is: to go out as often as I can and just take pictures. Take pictures of whatever I see and am inspired by regardless of if I think it's going to make a good shot or not. That, to me, is the fun and joy of photography and what I have missed for far too long. So, here's to new adventures with an old interest!!!